I’ve been keeping a few of them, actually. I never posted a blog on what my word of the year for 2018 is, or the work I’ve been doing as I keep that word before me. I haven’t written about how the launch of Break Right has gone, or how my freelance work is going, or what’s coming in 2019. Why haven’t I been sharing here, in this most personal and intentional of spaces? Simply put, because I haven’t felt “released” to do so. It’s like my mouth was closed and locked. I haven’t been able to speak on everything I’ve been doing, learning, and preparing, but now…now, it’s time to speak up!
My word of the year for 2018 is SOW. Instead of committing to a long list of hoped for outcomes like I usually do, this year I committed myself to one thing: trying. I would sow a seed and leave the results to the Lord. If an opportunity came up that I wanted to take but didn’t know how it would turn out, I would take it, reminding myself to leave the increase to the Lord. As someone who loves to think things through, and hates to try anything I’m not sure will work, it’s been a stretching, stressful year, but a good one. As a result of my goal to sow, I did a LOT of things scared and uncertain, including:
- taking a solo writer’s retreat in St. Augustine.
- Starting a reading blog.
- Attempting online dating.
- Starting a podcast.
- Submitting to a writing contest for the first time in 3 years.
- Applying to work with a Writer’s Retreat program.
- Adding another company to my freelance client roster.
- Adding several clients to my freelance client roster.
- Rethinking the structure of my freelance publishing services site.
- Two things I still need to announce…
So how has this year of sowing changed me? It’s meant I’ve failed…A LOT. I’m a recovering perfectionist and full time let-me-consider-all-the-options-before-I-do-anything, figurative doomsday prepper, and enneagram 6, so failure and fear of failure are up there with loss of security and stability on my “no, thank you” list. In other words, this year was a rollercoaster ride I did not want to be on, but what else is new? Along with the wonderful and weird things listed above, there were quite a few failed experiments and not so great things. However, overall, the year turned out better than I imagined.
There are a lot of changes headed my way in 2019 (and y’all know how much I LOVE changes *sarcasm*), and I’m sure the Lord will put another word on my heart that is met with an immediate “No, thank you,” but I’m also convinced it will all work together for my good. Besides, I know someone who is actively praying for my desire for a husband, and I’m praying to find strength, stability and security in the Lord, so 2019 has to be better than I could ask or imagine.
I’m transitioning all of my personal posts over to this site as I refine (and rebrand!) The Season for Getting Serious, so be on the lookout for more content here in 2019.
What was your word of the year for 2018, and how have you seen it show up in your year?
*P.S. What’s the secret I’m keeping, you ask? Well, tune in tomorrow to hear about the two things I’ve been sowing into for most of this year that I haven’t announced yet. 😉