Ask and ye shall receive; knock, and the door will be opened unto you…or the less divine colloquialism: “All you had to do was ask.” Fact: I am not a person who asks a lot of people,; in fact, it could be said I ask far less than I should in all relationships across the spectrum. My reticence about what I require or deserve or want does not preclude the imposition of expectations upon me by others. I am learning, slowly but surely, how to make my requests known

At work yesterday I had to speak with our tech guy about my permissions within some software. He gave me a robotic “system does not compute” face when I explained what I needed and why. After goiing through all mytasks, he finally caught on. The problem was I wasn’t given those permissions because I was never supposed to be doing those tasks. This is exactly what I told you in the last entry. Tech guy gives permissions on the condition that he will review this situation with accounting lady tomorrow (aka today).

I have to start going to my boss and letting him advocate for me again. I at least have to speak up to him and have a higher up get answers for me as to when I will be able to take up a career path here, before I move on to a higher paid post with a better defined path somewhere else.

Same thing goes for my personal relationships. I have to clearly outline what I expect of people if they are going to be in my life. My job is not to save people who don’t want to be saved. I’m not sragging anyone kicking and screaming around the throne, to the right side of the law, back to common sense, or into adulthood. But I have to do more than decide what I won’t do; I have to let it be known what I will accept from others. If you want to be the kind of friend/family I need, great, if not, oh well; nice to have known you. My expectations are forthcoming.